Thoughts

First there was a promsing navy blue streak
it lingered but swiftly faded.
A hopeful ray of emerald pierced the gray sky.
It was impossible to hold onto.
Right in time a brilliant blue filled the whole atmosphere
pentrating all doubt.
And is here to stay.

__________________*sigh*_______________________

Suppose that I missed you
Suppose that I cared.
And suppose that I've spent all my nights running scared
And suppose that I was never there.

And my eyes are screaming for the sight of you
And tonight I'm dreaming of all the things that we've been through
And I can't hold on to you.
So I guess I feel lonely, too.

Suppose we were happy,
Suppose it was true.
And suppose there were cold nights,
But we somehow made it through
And suppose that I'm nothing without you.

Slow way down,
This break down's eating me alive.
And I'm tired,
while this fight is fighting to survive.

Suppose that I was wrong,
Suppose you were here.
And suppose that I reached out and caught your tears
And suppose this just disappeared.

Life doesn't get much better...

Stranger by Secondhand Serenade
http://www.mp3.com/artist/secondhand-serenade/summary/
:')

fifteen

You take a deep breath
And you walk through the doors
It's the mornin of your very first day
You say hi to your friends you ain't seen in a while
And try to stay out of everybody's way

It's your freshman year
And you're gonna be here for the next 4 years
In this town
Hopin' one of those Senior boys
Will wink at you and say 'I haven't seen you around before'

Cuz when you're fifteen, somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen
Feelin' like there's nothin to figure out

Count to ten
Take it in
This is life before you know who you're gonna be
Fifteen

You sit in class next to red-head Abigail
And soon enough you're best friends
Laughi'n at the other girls
Who they think they're so cool
We'll be out of here as soon as we can


And then you're on your very first date
And he's got a car
And you're feelin like flyin
And you're momma's waitin up
And you're thinkin he's the one
And you're dancin around the room when the night ends
When the night ends

Cuz when you're fifteen, somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen
And your first kiss makes your head spin around

But in your life you'll do things
Greater than datin the boy on the football team
But I didn't know it at fifteen

When all you wanted
Was to be wanted
Wish you could go back
And tell yourself what you know now


Back then I swore I was gonna marry him someday
But I realized some bigger dreams in life
And Abigail gave everything she had
To a boy who changed his mind
And we both cried


Cuz when you're fifteen, somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen
Don't forget to look before you fall


I've found time can heal most anything
And you just might who you're supposed to be
I didn't know who I was supposed to be
at fifteen

La la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la la...


You're very first day
Take a deep breath girl
And take a deep breath as you walk through the doors

Redundantly Repetitious

It's hard to be original and create your own ideas. But once we learn how, sometimes we get addicted to creation. Once we learn to shut off our own ideas, we can discover what everyone else has to add, and can improve what we had designed to create. Inspiration can't come from repetition.

This may sound like 1st Grade, but recently I made a new friend. :) He is what I would call an inspiration. Not many people view him as an inspiration, but he is. He has mastered what many never can: peace building. He is not a member of any church, and doesn't believe in everything I do, but he is a great example of Christlike behavior. He knows where I am broken. I thought only I knew that there was an unfinished puzzle inside me, but he is quietly sweeping up the shards. My friend is not a performer, he is an achiever, and he is most definitely not redundant. His ideas are similar to what stardust is made out of. His hope is impenetrable. His eyes disappear when he smiles. His laugh is frequent, contagious, and addictive. When the world laughs at him, he laughs along. He sings with feeling. He is inspiration.

And he's ruining my life.

sigh

Ocasionally Often

Sometimes people are selfless and give you your sweet time.
Sometimes that person is honest and means that.
Sometimes honesty is one of the most admirable traits a person can have.
Sometimes honesty is lonely, because everyone lies.

Sometimes lonely is good.

Because sometimes we deserve it.