addicted to conflict

I had a brainwave so I thought I'd simmer it out in a post.

What a strange world we live in. insane more like. but what would we be without the trauma and chaos? Nothing. A big nothingness blob. crazy, huh? We all thrive on conflict. Everything we enjoy involves conflict. Movies, friendships, and the stories we read and write…all the plots are based around conflict. We listen to sad songs, we love getting scared, we laugh when others get hurt or embarass themselves. Talk about strange! Nothing on this planet is consistent, nothing is perfect, yet we all think that somehow, the third time we try we’ll get just what the doctor ordered. We fail embarrassingly only to remember that of course perfection is impossible.
Risk leads to loss. Hope leads to tears.
50% of the time.
No patterns. No maps. Only a song in your head and a prayer in your heart will keep you alive.

That global warming presentation must be getting to my head…;)

One darn clean window

This morning my dad woke me up and said to meet up on the veranda for prayer and scripture study. Tikla was groggily climbing up the stairs next to me. Recently, I had cleaned the sliding glass door that leads to the veranda, for a punishment. Now here's where it gets intense. Can you guess what's coming next?

Tikla slammed nose first into the door. After a short pause...

mom:: that's one clean window, tori...

tikla:: *opened it properly, walked through, and promptly slumped down in the usual prayer and scripture study position*

me:: in hysterics with laughter

Tikla may have been too tired to see the humor in the situation, or maybe she was in some pain, but I could not stop laughing, mostly because it could've easily have been me that rammed into the door...the joys of having a sister. or two. starr has leaped into that same door. Have you seen me crashing into things? never, right? I guess I'm brunette at the roots. ;)

Another thing I gained from this delightful experience is the answer to the big question of life, "What are you gonna be when you grow up?":
I think I'm going to wash windows. but that's only if minimum wage increases.

rock on.

I really am still here

I found the pieces in my hand
They were always there
It just took some time for me to understand
You gave me words I just can't say
So if nothing else
I'll just hold on while you drift away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive

The cities grow
The rivers flow
Where you are, I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here
Still here

Seeing the ashes in my heart
The smile the widest
When I cry inside and my insides blow apart
I tried to wear another face
Just to make you proud
Just to make you put me in my place
But everything you wanted from me
Is everything that I could never be

The cities grow
The rivers flow
Where you are, I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here

Maybe tonight
It's gonna be alright
I will get better
Maybe today
It's gonna be okay
I will remember

I held the pieces of my soul
I was shattered and I wanted you to come and make me whole
When I saw you yesterday
But you didn't notice
And you just walked away
Cause everything you wanted me to hide
Is everything that makes me feel alive

The cities grow
The rivers flow
Where you are, I'll never know
But I'm still here
If you were right and I was wrong
Why are you the one who's gone
And I'm still here
The lights go out, the bridges burn
Once you're gone, you can't return
But I'm still here
Remember how you used to say I'd be the one to runaway
But I'm still here

Salty Dreams

I can't wait for memorial day. You know why? Becasue it's a day for remembering. So I can remember what it's like to sleep for more than 5 hours every night. :)

Colors and words

It's harder than it looks...you should've seen Jake and Skylar try...:D

Corn, fans, butter, and the such like...

Corny thingy for the day: "I'm your biggest fan, but you're the one blowing me away..." Could I have a little butter with that corn?

wow. I'm leaving now.

I *heart* life!

Life is a gift...every breath we take is a gift. We all have the power to make the decision to either live a 100% life or just to float along, allowing influences to control our lives.

There is no right or wrong way of living this wondrous journey, but if we can live it the best possible way we can, enjoying everything around us...being in "this moment" constantly growing and learning, appreciating and loving, we would be much richer for it.

Here are some amazing life quotes::

Life is a progress, and not a station
Ralph Waldo Emerson


Life is just a chance to grow a soul.
Powell Davies


Science is organized knowledge. Wisdom is organized life.
Immanuel Kant


Where there is love there is life.
Mohandas K. Gandhi


Life is a succession of lessons, which must be lived to be understood.
Ralph Waldo Emerson


The purpose of life is a life of purpose.
Robert Byrne


Life is the flower for which love is the honey.
Victor Hugo


How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.
Annie Dillard


How you live one day is eventually how you live your life.
Phillip Yancey


The measure of life, after all, is not it’s duration but it’s donation.
Corrie Ten Boom

rock on.