don't close your eyes or this will fade away.

Okay, so I had this dream. I would call it a vivid dream, but that wouldn't do it justice. It felt so incredibly real that it took me until after breakfast to shake it off. This dream was horrible. But at the same time, the intensity of it was sickly enjoyable. I was a few years older in this dream, yet I was completely reliving experiences and mistakes I've already had and made. I was doing things I had already chosen not to do or say again. Somewhere in the back of my mind, I was telling myself not to make the same mistakes, but it was inevitable. I watched myself be used, again. I felt myself allowing myself be controlled, again. So it was in that sense, a nightmare. I felt like there was no other alternative for my future. In the dream, I was trying to escape the situation, but I felt like if I did, there would be nothing else out there for me. So I had no options, except to willingly hurt myself. So I got paranoid. I imagined worse things to calm myself down. I tried to convince myself that it was beautiful, and no life could be better. It's still scary for me to think about now. These were such real feelings.

So am I doomed to this fate? Or it is a warning? Or was it just a stupid dream? :P